When I look back on my picture on this blog I can see that I’ve gained weight.
What that shows is only that there is more of me. Not that I’m getting fat.
I actually feel leaner than I’ve done in a long time.
The feeling of being leaner might not have anything to do with my body.
I’ve not only gained mass, I’ve gained a lot of things you can’t see.
Like I’ve gained acceptance of my body. I’ve gained strength and not just physically. I’ve gained confidence that my body can perform well and that I know how to do things with right form because I’ve worked on technique instead of vanity.
All I’ve gained, I’ve gain for good. I can always lose weight, without losing this period of acceptance and I’ll fight to keep like my body even through I would like to get lean and I would love to improve my strength.
Right now my goal is to get strong enough to do pull ups by February. Not that I’ll use it in my teaching but because I want to be in good shape and feel confident about my abilities when I’m instructing others.
I’m a narcissist douche in the gym. Constant mirin and almost always take a picture at the end. I don’t really care what other thinks, it motivates me to take silly selfies.
Loved my body at the gym today. Yes some stuff need work BUT LOOK AT MY CALF AND SHOULDER!
Today’s workout was soooo good! Just wish the center didnt close so that I could add some core work
My workout today felt lame even through I was sweating like crazy. My mind denied simple to relax and get happy.
This is my evening stomach and I’m beginning to like my body more and more. I might not have visible abs but I like the small quirks my body have. Like my bended rib that makes it look like I only have a half one and my obliques feel strong and so does upper and mid back. And my legs are pretty awesome and strong, so are my shoulders.
And within this body is all my awesome personality traits and abilities. That list I could go on about but I should sleep now.
Sleep tight and stay positive.
Did I spell that correctly?
Trained at home because I was nauseas and the weight room in the gym is far from the toilet. Good choice. I just had to modify the program a bit
Yesterday’s post Work out, daily douche.